yay..gonna have a new blog all thanks to izzy! i love you! ask me for my new add if u want it.
yay..gonna have a new blog all thanks to izzy! i love you! ask me for my new add if u want it.
i'm accepted by law. yay! :D
as i laid in bed tryin to fall aslp last night, it suddenly struck me tt my life is such a complete joke. YOU probably thought tt way many times before. i did too. wait a min, let me make my sentence clearer.
I AM SUCH A JOKE. think abt it. i'm sure many of you have heard abt the statement where they say : you aint who you are. you aint even who you think you are. you are what you think others think you are.
all my life, i've been building up this false impression of me. ppl say tt im a bitch, because of wad i say. ppl say tt im confident, witty, funny, smug, arrogant, rude, hot-tempered. spoilt, pampered, brat, kid. i must be a really good orator to be able to instill all those thoughts into you. my image as a bitch, a spoilt brat, a materialistic kid is so convincing, isn't it? it's so convincing everyone thinks tt it's d real me. no one believes me when i say im shy. perhaps its the way i said it, but hey, i really am. who isn't? who isn't insecure? who isn't stressed? who doesn't want to be pampered? who doesn't want to dream? just cox i don't say some things and joke abt other issues doesn't make me
ME. i hope you get it. i really hope you get it.
so at the end of the day, after my prayer, i always come to realise tt my facade and pretty life i've built up comes crumbling down. and then i've to rebuild it the nx day. and i'll add more details, and sound more lk a princess. princess high-n-mighty-i-told-you-so-boss-of-the-world. i'll start thinking abt my perfect life just before i slp. the perfect life where everything happens the way i want it. everything. but i know that its just a figment of my fertile imagination. my beautiful world made up in my mind. my life ain't pretty. i won't say its bleak too. i dun even know how to differentiate between a blessing and a curse now. all i know now is tt im a joke. my pretty life. my several facets. none of it real.
